Cole's Wedding was beyond magnificent! Everything went pretty much as planned minus the fact that a few major highways were shut down causing a lot of people to miss the ceremony but they made it to the reception still. Then there was the fact that Cole was sick the entire day of her wedding and night before. Obviously we all assumed it was nerves and that she would eventually be fine but Dave called from Beliz while on their honeymoon saying she is still sick and has been the whole time they have been there....Poor thing! How miserable that must be!  I hope she gets to feeling better before they have to return.

Other then that it was a gorgeous wedding and all of the family was there and tons of friends. I had a blast and took tons of super pics. Lauren and i had a great time driving down from Aggieland together and traveling back was also an adventure...Granted Lauren almost drove us off the road like 12 times....it was still fun. We took pics while driving which might not have been the safest idea but they came out fine and we made it there and back safely even with wacky photography going on during the drive!

I stayed with my older bro when i went down. My roomie Heidi and her boyfriend Jeff came down for the wedding and they stayed with me and Robert as well. They got there at 2:00 in the morning but they still got there safely and we had a blast. The whole event was a major joyous event and celebration for everyone. Although i will admit i was a mess once we blew the bubbles and watched them drive away together.....I was such a mess....Thank God for waterproof make up. Everyone who was there were a great comfort to me and made me feel better even though my sister was gone and i knew i wont see her again for quite a while, and that when i do it will be so different....It will never be Me and Cole having sister time again.....it will now be Me, Cole, and Dave hanging out and goofing off....

All in all the weekend went well...there were a few upseting events that took place and a few heart wrenching details that made my tummy ache and crushed me....But i made it through after shedding tears of joy, sadness, and reality, and then everything was ok. Life can be really hard to deal with without good family and friends and lots of prayers....So thanks to everyone who has been there for me over the past months of stress and adjustment after having my sis leave me to fend for myself. I couldnt be more ready but its also hard sometimes.

          All my love....hugs.....and kisses...

Days get better as they go on. I am officially moved into my new place with my new roomies, and i am loving it. Cole is officially graduating tomorrow morning and the family is coming up tonight for that. What excitement! Things are going ok for now but each new day is different. I am preparing to say goodbye to my roomie, best friend, mentor and sister all wrapped into one special person tomorrow. This is going to be tough.

To all those who have been praying for me and keeping up with me by sweet phone calls and visits thanks so much. Its what i need right now and its proving to help with each new day.

I havent been around much and i havent been on the computer much either. I have been busy and stressed out and life in general has been taking its tole on me.

Cole's lingere/bachelorette party wasnt at all what we had planned and expected....but then again what in life is? NOTHING!!

I went home last weekend for wedding portraits with Cole....I went to church with my older bro and we spent lots of good quality time together. It seems i always miss him sooooo much once i leave.  It's so easy to miss him and his high spirited fun personality.

Things here in Aggieland are beginning to get crazy again. Graduations are going on which means tons of family, which then translates into WAY TOO MUCH TRAFFIC!!!! New students are moving in; old students are moving out. Friends are coming and friends are going. Everyone is flip flopping around waiting for the final days of summer break to end and the first days of fall semester to begin. Life is just one big circle....round and round we go!

I am still really struggling with certain things in my life right now so continued prayers from all of you would be greatly appreciated. I love you all with my whole little heart and i hope your day is a splendid one.

 Delight in the Lord......

                                   Littleone

Whats one to do???

Tell me what's one to do when there is no one for them to confide in? No one to talk to and trust with everything? What is one to do when there isnt a person anywhere around them for them to chat with and discuss life and all the issues that going along with it. What is one to do when there is no one there for them to tell how they feel, what they think, and whats been going on with their life?

I mean i know i can ALWAYS confide in God, and i know i can always trust him and know everything will be allright. But what am i to do when i dont have anyone to talk to on a friend to friend basis. You know how sometimes you just need someone to talk to male or female; someone u can trust and someone u know cares enough about you to be able to tell you like it is, set you straight, or at least give you some good advice....Sometimes you need someone other then family.

I've come to find out that i dont actually have that. I thought i did, but i guess i was just wanting to have someone like that in my life. I use to have plenty of people to talk to, people who i could trust and people who cared about me and my struggles as much as i cared about theirs. I use to have that in high school. I dont have that anymore and i am not sure if thats part of growing up or if that was just the unlucky hand i was dealt. Either way its hard, and its really getting to me lately.

Holding everything in makes me tired, depressed, and all alone. Some of the worst feelings in the emotional world. I am not sure if it will get better but i pray it does soon...This whole keep everything bottled up inside and act as happy as you can to make others think you are ok because u cant tell them the truth because u cant trust them deal is really taking its tole on me.

I need to go to sleep....Goodnight

With all good thing come the bad as well. While i am excited and happy about my move out/move in day being in 5 short days there are also many stressful events occuring in my life right now. I am really struggling with many things right now, and i am not the only one.

Prayers for my family right now are really really needed. Prayer is the only thing that will get us through this time right now. So i am not asking for a 12 day fasting session or a weekly call and check up but if during your busy days you can send a small prayer up in regaurds to out family it would be greatly appreciated and quite awesome of you.

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Matthew 11:28

*Come to me all you who are weary and burdended, and i will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for i am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Proverbs 24:10

* If you falter in times of trouble, how small is your strength!

John 13:7

* You do not realize now what i am doing, but later you will understand.